[ "unfortunately, I have literally zero idea how to even START doing that in a way that doesn't feel like lying--"
he turns around to face him. ]
I wronged you. You deserve to know a clearer reason why.
...This all happened only because I wasn't honest. With the rest of Rose, about my... mental unpredictability. We even had a talk, once, all together, about things that would make us all overwhelmed or lose our reason in a ritual, and... I could have said, then, that being pulled from my body would bring something hideous forth from me. Instead, the moment we tried to prepare for came, I presented myself authoritatively, and they submitted to my cruel judgment because I was too stubborn to let it go.
And... then... you vouched for me. I was wrong that hurting Daffodil would be "fine." As if it ever could be. I did wrong.
It was all an absolutely needless act. And it wouldn't have happened if... in that moment, I'd returned, to you, a fraction of what you've put forth for me.
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Date: 2023-09-14 10:56 pm (UTC)he turns around to face him. ]
I wronged you. You deserve to know a clearer reason why.
...This all happened only because I wasn't honest. With the rest of Rose, about my... mental unpredictability. We even had a talk, once, all together, about things that would make us all overwhelmed or lose our reason in a ritual, and... I could have said, then, that being pulled from my body would bring something hideous forth from me. Instead, the moment we tried to prepare for came, I presented myself authoritatively, and they submitted to my cruel judgment because I was too stubborn to let it go.
And... then... you vouched for me. I was wrong that hurting Daffodil would be "fine." As if it ever could be. I did wrong.
It was all an absolutely needless act. And it wouldn't have happened if... in that moment, I'd returned, to you, a fraction of what you've put forth for me.