I think I still um… The older you and I are still learning to get along in some ways, so um, reading will only help so much… Sometimes he acts more like the younger yous than like you.

But I don’t— want you to feel like I don’t think you’re capable. Don’t want to be angry at you either. Am angry enough at whoever… made you have to kill or perform to survive. Made happiness something you need to sneak around.

[he’s not sure how much of this snuggling is practiced, either. the older one doesn’t like touch like this… But it’s a gift he’ll accept. muffin chirps a small purr.]

…are really good at this though, yeah.